A Little letter •

“Yes I gave you life, but really you gave me mine.” 

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So here it is baby girl. The final few weeks of living as a family of three in our family home. It still doesn’t seem real, but I guess after a year of co-habiting under the same roof, it’s going to take some getting used to. Mummy & daddy are finally taking the steps to sorting out our future, our future of living apart, & doing our upmost best in bringing you up as a team.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not going to be easy, adjusting to who has you when, dividing up those special moments, and almost you living your life in two different places. But what I do know, is that you are loved. You are loved beyond measure from both sides of your family, and this is only going to better you as a person. You will get quality time with me, & quality time with daddy. And whats even better, those special moments, those Christmases and birthdays; you get two. Two of all of them. & I can tell you from experience, you can’t complain at that!

I do however have so much worry, worry for your little life being turned upside down. The routine as you know it literally being shook about, and well, us having to totally start from the beginning & find our feet as a family of two & two. It’s going to be hard. & even harder for daddy. For him not to be able to see you everyday breaks my heart, just to have that goodnight cuddle, to put his socks on his hands & be the tickle monster or those moments to talk about what you’ve been doing that day. I don’t ever want you to feel like we didn’t try our best, because we did. We tried harder than anything, more than our love could ever give, we put our own feelings and happiness aside to give you what you needed. But baby girl, you will only learn as you get older that sometimes that isn’t enough, and we know that we can offer you so much more apart. I just hope you can understand this and I hope you understand I love daddy for giving me the gift of you. I’m going to miss hearing him reading you stories, the laughter you squeal when he chases you up the stairs, the way you shuffle your little bum up next to him to steal his dinner, and the way you two have more similarities than you’ll ever know. Life is a journey, and I honestly feel I met your daddy, because life wanted us to have you. Our precious little D.

So here we go, onto new adventures. We will move forward with smiles & be proud of everything we’ve achieved. We may feel we’ve failed you, but who cares if we aren’t the typical family. All you need to know is that you have two parents that love you with every inch of their hearts, & don’t you ever ever forget that.

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You are our everything. Our one in a million. Our always.

Mama x

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One thought on “A Little letter •

  1. Oh kerry! This bought tears to my eyes. A beautiful letter to little D. You tried your hardest and that’s all you can do. She’s lucky to have a beautiful strong mama like you and she’ll appreciate when she’s older that you did the best for her! Lots of love to you xxxxxx

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